i don't want to have to wonder

i don't want to have to wonder.
when i'm old. at the end of my life. in 5 years. never. never do i want to have to wonder.

in Visioneering Andy Stanley said - “A clear vision, along with the courage to follow through, dramatically increases your chances of coming to the end of your life, looking back with a deep abiding satisfaction and thinking. I did it. I succeeded. I finished well. My life counted.” 
no doubt that's what i want.
without vision I get to the end of life and WONDER… “Wonder what I could have done—what I should have done.”

and I would rather freakin’ die now than have that happen.